ruthiesaurr BABY ;)

Erm, yeah. :D Header says it all. I'm gonna rock a jumper to school , it'll look good with a blazer and some heels, or glad flats, maybe oxfords depeding on the look. Chyeahhhh. & no one has wore em' yet. So watch me rock it, & everyone's gonna start wearing em'. haha. Anywho, here's my wishlistttt <3

 << MAC Professional 180 Color Set . What the Pro's use , babyy :D

<< 24 PC MAC Brush Set , ooh lah lah. Do i even use that many brushes?! (:

<<JC BRACELET I don't even wear bracelets, but OMG <3 Juicy Couture. Simple plain. Beautiful.

<, Juicy Couture necklace. I don't even like jewelry, but this i likeee <3

I did some Black Friday shopping. I got to the mall around 10:45 PM and there was a line in front of the mall ?! Crazy people. Anywho, sales weren't "OMG-good", they were normal sales. Spent like- 160 something- BALLIN ;]] Left the mall around 3- almost 4 O'clock. MHM! D: And went to sleep around 5 - woke up at 2 in the afternoon. CRAZY, i tell you. anywho, I want more clothes. haha. JUMPSUIT love, meswear inspired apparel love,  & LACE & LEATHER <33333 All F21, cause it's cheaper. lol. i need to save.

Ruthie doesn't know =/ Ehhhhhh, so i was talking to a friend today. Yes a dude! but like somehow our convo led to the boofrann ? LOL. funny. But he was just like, " I don't even know you that well, but i can really tell you love him, and miss him even if he's far away from you now. and i can tell you don't trust him cause he's a big flirt ! OMG OMG! A dude called my babe a big flirt! rofl. kinda funny. I was like OMG- i so* trust him. But now to think of it, I don't know why I decided to put my trust in him. I've had my heart torn to pieces trusting someone before, that i was afraid to ever trust a guy ever again. But I feel like I can trust him, you know? All the crap I've been through has made a a bit of a stronger person, all the tears i shed, made me realize so much. I hate crying, but when i cry, I realize so much. ROFL. Im a sensitive loser face, that's what i am. After I talked to him today, I felt all bubbly. I think it was all the cheese I ate on my spaghetti my brother madeee =) LOL! But yeah, I'm a stronger person, I kinda don't give a freak what anyone has to say anymore- lol i said kinda; alot of things get to me still ! I always think about him, constantly, constantly...I'm a more stable person now, I'm a physically tough girl- but a pain i can never take in is heartbreak. I can break a leg, break a bone, and get up like it's nothing. But heartbreak always clings to me. I felt it one time too many, that I'm so afraid of it now. I trust him, I really do. But today he kinda doubted me. LOL, naw fereaaals? ; chyeah FEREALS. He was like you're over friendly sometimes, and stuff like that and basically it was a pang of doubt he was trying to express. I understand, maybe he has trust issues too? Maybe he's felt some sort of heartbreak as well, i guess? i d k, but I try to understand too. It hurts to know he doesn't kinda trust me like I trust him, but it's A-OKAY ;D cause, really, I don't want anyone else anymore now that i got him. I find no flaws on him. I wonder if he talks about me, like i talk about him. And I know for fact, I'm not the only girl in the world that wonders these things. We never really argued, I hate arguing- UGH! Because i hate crying. When I argue- i cry. When I'm mad- i cry. When I'm sad- i cry. So why argue with a person you love? To me, arguing is stupid. I don't understand why some couples argue all the time and say the cruelist things to eachother, I MEAN WHERE IS THE LOVE, PEOPLE?! shoot. lol! Really, I don't see the point in arguing. I hate it, PUH-REE-UDDD. I don't wanna argue with him, i don't wanna risk what we have. That's the honest truth. I really love him, it's hard for me to like/love someone too. He's just someone that's worth my time, and worth the wait. *sigh yep. all i gota say for now.

Update on the bedhead thing? Oh, i so got in, man! =D It was totally fun, great exposure. Chyeah! *Hi Five* ROFL. Ehm, today was a pretty good day, i must say. I talked about him alot today. LOL. Mhm, but i cannot help it. My ipod gets on my nerveeeee; sometimes it wont connect to the computer, but when it works, it's the best thing ever <3 LOL! Heh, it's gettin' late. I needa up up m grades in school. I have to say Im prob a C AVERAGE right now =-( OMGAH. I was so beastly last year. A&B's all the time, now it's like- ehh. ;/ I found my makeup clutch i lost. YAY, me. I'mso ready to shopppp; man, you don't even knowwww! ;P Or do ya? Ayee, i d k. Ready for Black Friday, but gahh im scareddd to get trampled over by people~ >=0 Ferrreaaalss, though. Myspace is so whack. I only get on for one reason. LOL. ehhh, no need in sayin' so. Im so hungryyyyyyyyy; <3 I got my hair colored/cut by Tigi pro's. I kinda like it, kinda don't.

092109; Yesterday was our one month, Yes just one :) LOL Seems like forever; since it's been forever since we've been talking. Chyeaah ! :) Okay, so I need to go watch Paranormal Activity soon. Tomorrow I'm going to a TIGI BEDHEAD casting ! Yes, it's a model casting call; hoping to get innnnn! I'm sort of ready. I lost my little mini makeup clutch! It had only eyeliner, white liner, concealer, burt's bees lip balm, Estee; Lauder Blush (in my fav shade !), Blush Brush, and Lash Stilhettos Mascara. Eh, the only thing Im upset about is the blush :-/ I left it in vlass in  a hurry- came back to look for it & now it's gone! Grr, im always losing stuff. I already lost my rainbows; and oh do i miss em' =[ Uggghhh- i wish people would just give me back my stuff, you know?! *sighh* But yes, Bedhead tomorrow; if i get in, I get my hair colored for freeeee; well i get paid for a pro to do my hairrr <3 Woo hoo! ROFL. Saturday is the CHANG NEW YEAR;; i am going, actually. OMG Ariel Perez, thanks so much for the gifts! =) *hughug* ArielPerezPhotography.com << One of my fav photogs, sent me a gift. After looking at my wishlist, he bought the items for me~ He's so sweet =) The stuff was from Fashion4us.com; cheap dolly- freakin cool asian clothing! :) It came in the mail yesterdayyyyy; He got me the Trench Coat and a Fall Sweater Dress :) The coat was roughly 21.00 and the dress was 8.00~. OMG; the quality is awesome, dude! The coat is made from WOOL; real wool =) Keeps me warm and snuggggggggg- <3 For 21.00~ it's such a STEAAAAAAL. I'm posting a youtube vid soon

Mhm. So yeah, I have a new love. Yeahhhh. I've never been blogging lately, so i might as well rant my cootay off. His name is D_____ C______ A________. He's absolutely awesome. LOL, he's been my bestest friend & yeaah. But anyways, I've been thinking about him a lot lately- I meant, forever. . .truthfully. It feels weird, but yeah I'm not trying to say some sappy fake corny crap and all, but this feeling is different, totally something I have never felt before. I mean, he makes me happy, he was my bestest friend & still is. It's satisfying? LOL No idea, how to explain. Can't put this in words. I suck at this, as you can see. I'm quite hungry. I went to this sushi place, uh- gotta say didn't like it at all ! Geesh. Called Ru San's ? LOL. Yeah. Duuude. It wasn't authentic jap food, the sushi was alright. I look for quality and taste, I'm a food lover, you guys. but yeah, the only reason i would ever go again is if someone's paying LOL. Otherwise, Naah. I haven't gone shopping in ages, but it's whatever. . .I'm kind of getting tired of this modeling scheme and all, it's pretty cool sometimes, depending on how cool your photographer is-otherwise a waste of your day =/ Ughh, I'm just ready to be 5'8; or 5'9, cmonnnn GROWTH SPURT! Dang you. I am quite pooped. Sundays are always so chilled, and quiet; perfect sleeping in days. I wish I was able to be with him right about now. But I gotta wait it out... visit? http://modelmayhem.com/ruthiechang << Model Port.

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