02-22-10 (go back »)

I have to say , I can't stop smiling. The very thought of him enlightens me . I'm at school right now ; ] lmao . I'm in his shirt , just in a great , off the wall - mood . I needa slap myself . It's insane . It's like a dream . As queer as that sounds, it's true . It feels too good to happen in reality . Last night was gorgeous ; ] He was gorgeous. I got to see him smile - and that made my night. He wears a smile that could make me wanna sing. ; ] Mhm . I fall for him way too fast , but i can't help myself - i really wish I could . I don't know what the hell is wrong with me . After I got to be with him yesterday , I can't stop smiling . Really! I can't >.< I missed him - so damn much  . I thought we were gonna be done - FOREVER . Eh, thing is we're pretty much inseperable . Ever since the first kiss that we shared , i think we may be something . But who am i to say , right ? My feelings for him haven't changed , but only progressed into something I can no longer hide nor control  . I'm a broken person , but he's with me . He's still here . Even with all the mistakes and my flaws , he's still with me . It takes someone special to put up with a person like me , and he's doing good  (: Thing is , I'm extremely immature , childish , super sensitive , emotionally weak , extra insecure - but he takes my bullshit,  you know ? He makes me feel beautiful . & I love feeling that way . And ugh - people are ranting their asses off about how stupid i am for being with him, or how we shouldn't be together or whatnot . Eh , I know - we been through some major shit , but what they dont understand is  how feelings can take over a person  . It's insane , it really is . I admit it's insane . But what's a girl to do ? As strong as I try to be , he's my weakness . I'm on top of the world when he's with me . I don't know what's wrong with me . All that I can say is that im deeply in love , for the longest time now .